“Sometimes I imagine my own autopsy. Disappointment in myself:  right kidney. Disappointment of others in me: left kidney. Personal  failures: kishkes… When the clocks are turned back and the dark falls  before I’m ready, this, for reasons I can’t explain, I feel it in my  wrists. And when I wake up and my fingers are stiff, almost certainly I  was dreaming of my childhood… Yesterday I saw a man kicking a dog and I  felt it behind my eyes. I don’t know what to call this, a place before  tears. The pain of forgetting: spine. The pain of remembering: spine.  All the times I have suddenly realized that my parents are dead, even  know, it surprises me, to exist in the world while that which made me  has ceased to exist: my knees. To everything a season, to every time  I’ve woken only to make the mistake of believing for a moment that  someone was sleeping beside me: a hemorrhoid. Loneliness: there is no  organ that can take it all.” — The History of Love, Nicole Krauss

“Sometimes I imagine my own autopsy. Disappointment in myself: right kidney. Disappointment of others in me: left kidney. Personal failures: kishkes… When the clocks are turned back and the dark falls before I’m ready, this, for reasons I can’t explain, I feel it in my wrists. And when I wake up and my fingers are stiff, almost certainly I was dreaming of my childhood… Yesterday I saw a man kicking a dog and I felt it behind my eyes. I don’t know what to call this, a place before tears. The pain of forgetting: spine. The pain of remembering: spine. All the times I have suddenly realized that my parents are dead, even know, it surprises me, to exist in the world while that which made me has ceased to exist: my knees. To everything a season, to every time I’ve woken only to make the mistake of believing for a moment that someone was sleeping beside me: a hemorrhoid. Loneliness: there is no organ that can take it all.” — The History of Love, Nicole Krauss

Sometimes I imagine my own autopsy. Disappointment in myself: right kidney. Disappointment of others in me: left kidney. Personal failures: kishkes… When the clocks are turned back and the dark falls before I’m ready, this, for reasons I can’t explain, I feel it in my wrists. And when I wake up and my fingers are stiff, almost certainly I was dreaming of my childhood… Yesterday I saw a man kicking a dog and I felt it behind my eyes. I don’t know what to call this, a place before tears. The pain of forgetting: spine. The pain of remembering: spine. All the times I have suddenly realized that my parents are dead, even now, it surprises me, to exist in the world while that which made me has ceased to exist: my knees. To everything a season, to every time I’ve woken only to make the mistake of believing for a moment that someone was sleeping beside me: a hemorrhoid. Loneliness: there is no organ that can take it all.

Nicole Krauss, The History of Love